
Welcome to my gallery expressing emotions and convey feelings through words and music. Creating, writing, sharing, singing, playing, happy being.
Before music, purpose, love, light I was drowning in addictions, depression, destructive behaviors, pain and negativity... death loomed, overdose inevitable. Wanted to change desperately... to do better. Began with little steps, a little hope, never giving up no matter how many times I failed. Grateful I am alive to keep going, keep growing. Overcoming much, accepting what I can not control, bettering myself, becoming healthier and stronger each day.
Favorite colour: orange, blue, black
Birth date/sign: March 17, Pisces metal rooster
Piercings: lip, nose, eyebrow and 5 in each ear
Tattoos: 3
Relationship status: happily married, thankful for our many wonderful years together
Outlook: making music and creating has brought out the best version of me. Years of therapy, practice and training help me cope and live my best life
Favorite shows: Nature, animals,, comedies, scifi, documentaries, shows about inspiring people over coming the challenges in their lives,
Happiest life moments: wedding day and everyday with my wife, getting clean and being in recovery, creating music and productions, being pregnant
Hardest life moments: miscarriage, stopping addictions, depression, self harm and suicide attempts, pain and anxiety overloads
Dislikes: mean or negative people, violence, giving up, impulsive, destructive, judgemental or angry energy

Favorite sayings: one day at a time, be good to you,
never give up
Accomplish what I can, try, do, make the best of everyday! Be kind and loving, share my talents, art and music. Grow to be my best version; coping with pain, disabilities and in recovery from opioid addiction, depression, borderline personality disorder, eating disorders and nicotine addiction. Dream as big as I can and do my best!
Disabled since: since as far back as I can remember I have had terrible pain in all parts of my body and have suffered with physical, mental, emotional and learning disabilities. Diagnoses began at 10 years old, medication began at 14 years, first with antidepressants then will pain pills and sleeping meds. Followed by over 15 years of aggressive poking, prodding, testing, operations, procedures and countless prescription trials including many types of opioids
Medical terms and diagnoses: chronic pain disorder, fibromyalgia, Asthma, chronic migraines/cluster headaches, ibs, vaginismus, Endometriosis, depression, borderline personality disorder, Bulimia, insomnia, anxiety, dyslexic/ learning disabilities
Therapies I find most helpful: retraining my brain with positive thoughts, actions and behaviours - balanced living, water therapy(hot and cold), massage, rocking and swaying - gentle motions, distraction - do something you love, acceptance of what I can not control, stretching, deep breathing, kindness with others, myself and my limitations





